I've been good, I swear.
And they want to suspend me. I'm just mad at my self for not taking her to the principle like I should have. Because now she took me. I'm talking about my coach. She tried to get pity by speaking of her dying grandpa, and that was taking it to such a low level. That does not explain her not treating me like an equal, it does not explain anything at all. When you think she's at her lowest, she goes down to such a dirty level where she tries to suspend me. FUCKED UP. She's going to get it bad, whether I get suspended or not no one messes with me when I do not deserve. A psychology teacher and a coach for god sakes, and she's still so immature. She IS going to get it bad.

Really! am I loved or lost...?
I just don't get it... how do you so easily give up on your best friend and so easily make up. For that week you were mad at me, you were the biggest bitch in the world, and I'm supposed to forgive you because you did one decent thing? But I will... this time and only this time. But I wont be able to be the friend I was --- for a while... because of you.

And now what. Winter's coming. Short days and buisy scheduels. I feel like I'm gaining weight. and I just want to be 18 so I can see him. See if things have changed and to find out how I truely feel. I dated him for a year and nine months and just left one day... haven't spoken to him since.
I drove be your house today. You're still there... I think. At least your parents are, so thats good.
And every one is coupling up. Even my friend who is retarded when it comes to boys has got a crush, and he likes her back. and I just wish I had some one to like. I dress nice for no reason... why... why should i any more.
and college applications.. this is the time!
and my room is messy. but i want to get drunk just so i'll have a story to tell... or to get rid of my stuff.
and she think's we're friends again.... but i dont know... how can a girl be such a bitch and forget about it the next day. how.

God Dammit, What Else Can Go Wrong?

Masha. Masha. Masha. You're a flat assed selfish bitch who doesn't know how to orgasm.
YOU NEED TO GROW UP!
She cried to me on thursday and for once she was being her self. Not a phony ditz. Not a popularity kiss up (and lick down if I may add). For once you showed that people were being mean to you, and you didn't deserve it. and for once you showed true feelings. ---- BUT that was in private of course.
Funny coinsidence The next day you were sick of my shitless and uncontrollably annoyed with me. Could it be because I saw the true you for a second and for once it was a good person? Why were you my best friend to begin with. The only people you're nice to are popular people who treat you like shit, and then you come to the people you care about most and talk shit about the popular people to the ones you love (suck as I), and then you turn your back on me and try to compete with me for popularity and attention.
I tried to work things out, but all you could do was bitch at me about how I annoyed you, and disgusted you. and then you say "Truthfuly I think you're prettier" as if that had anything to do with the subject.
Hunny, you need to mature and right now you're just falling deeper and deeper into the depression you admitted having for a while now. and this depression began the moment you started dating Sam.
Stop and think. The obvious sometimes is hard to find.
And now it's me you hate. and I hate you, because you have been rude to my for far to long. I wish I could just take out all of my anger in violence, but I can't. So I'll just stay here quite and be the mature one.
Just please don't mess up homecoming any more than you already did.

YES, There Still is Good in This World
Ir's been a while since I wrote in my blog - so -- catch up time! I'm going to homecoming with a friends friend from Eastview, and people in school are bitches (to cut my bitching short).
And this world for a while just seemed to be getting worse and worse to me. Every now and then people would do things that made not understand how they're human and actually respect them selves (people who forgot to use their brain and common self).
But it's the little things that matter. So thank you Nick G, because tonight (correction the morning : ) you proved to me that there are still some good people in this world.
This isn't a big fancy thank you, but if you ever get to read my blog then thank you for being your self, and staying a true person.
The only thing you did Nick, was call me because I told you I had a bad day, but it showed that some one cares (and not for selfish reasons such as to find out the gossip on why I'm pissed), and every now and then I need to see some people in the world who aren't one hundred percent selfish, and your the first person I've seen in a while, and that makes you awesome for being your self.
It's 1:53 AM, and I'm going back to sleep, but that's all I really had to say, your awesome for being your self.